Dreaming.In.Reality

but tonight I am because it’s literally just one of those nights.

Let’s start from the beginning, like a month ago or so. Kiddo’s been doing this reaaaaaaaaaaaaaally annoying habit of making himself burp (swallowing air and the burping it back up) and anyone who knows my kid knows that he has a history of throwing up at the slightest bit of weirdness. So every.single.time I tell him DON’T DO THAT YOU WILL MAKE YOURSELF SICK AND THROW UP!!!!! I get the “No I won’t, they’re just burps”. -sigh-

So last week he gets a cold, turns out to be a really nice ear infection/sinus/throat infection. AWESOME. I took him Monday to the dr. for antibiotics because that’s when he finally starting complaining about his ear. At 330 in the morning. SO we’ve been trapped in the house since last Thursday because he was sick etc, and let’s be honest, he’s three and bored out of his skull. So finally he’s better today, I figure we can head out to GermLand aka Cosmic Adventures for some burn off energy time while mommy surfs the intertubes on their free wifi..

So while I’m hanging up coats, J has taken him to the washroom to go to the bathroom and I caught up and took over. Before we even get to the peeing part the bathroom he decides he needs to spit so instead of spitting in the toilet he swallows it and then is all “ew i swallowed boogies” and I’m all “well next time spit it in the toilet!” So he decides he needs to “reclaim” what he swallowed by making himself burp which in turn MADE HIMSELF THROW UP. Again I tell him ALL THE TIME when he does that, don’t do that, you’ll make yourself barf.. It took everything I had not to shout at him and go SEE I TOLD YOU THAT YOU’D MAKE YOURSELF THROW UP.

I spun him like a top when he let loose so I only got a wee bit on my sleeves, but it was all over his shirt, his socks, the floor.. the person in the stall next to us’s socks…Stripped him down, bought a cosmic shirt and new socks, which of course are slippy as all get out. Every 3 seconds I’m on him to stop being a spaz, gonna fall etc etc etc well sure enough he’s monkeying around on the tile floor at the food counter like a cracked out starlet and BAM falls and knocks his forehead off the floor -YARGH- As I was trying to get a drink from the food counter I was apologizing to the poor girls in that area about the kid barfing in the bathroom and they’re like it’s ok, it happens and I’m like HAHAHA YEAH! THANK GOD IT WAS THE BATHROOM HUH? COULD HAVE BEEN IN THE TUBES! The poor girl in front of me turned like white as a sheet. She looked new and I guess that never occurred to her. So he got about 15 minutes in the room upstairs to play and 15 in the arcade and we came home. I was SO DONE dealing with that.

CAN’T WAIT FOR TOMORROW BECAUSE WE’RE GOING BACK AGAIN WITH FRIENDS!

Personal
1. Was 2009 a good year for you?
It was a very good year. We had a lot of fantastic family time, some well needed Becka & Kevin time.
2. What did you do in 2009 that you’d never done before?:
I was personally successful
3. What was your biggest achievement of the year?:
Getting my photography business up and running the way it should be.
4. What was your biggest failure?:
Not taking control of my physical health and not regaining some of my creativity.
5. Did you suffer illness or injury?:
2009 was pretty healthy for me. I had some colds and that, but nothing too bad
6. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i) happier or sadder?: happier
ii) thinner or fatter?: thinner
iii) richer or poorer?: money wise ok, spiritually pretty ok too
7. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009:
I need to take more time for my mental well being. Creativity, relaxation, concentrating on what matters most.
8. What do you wish you’d done more of?:
Personal photography
9. What do you wish you’d done less of?:
Time inside and eating
10. What was the stupidest thing you did this year?
Not end a toxic relationship sooner. Not taking better care of myself
10. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?:
32 and I think we went out to dinner. I have this mental block on my birthday
11. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?:
More personal time for photography and bigger weight loss
12. What kept you sane?:
Kevin, Lucien, Kristy
13. What dates from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?:
Mother’s Day, one of the scariest days of my life.

Resolutions
14. Did you keep your New Year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?:
I honestly don’t think I got anywhere with 2009’s goals.. I don’t think I actually made 2009 goals. I can’t seem to find any kind of record of it. SCORE! Well no, I did have some goals on review part 2, but they really weren’t resolutions I guess.
2009’s Goals:

• Follow my house maintenance list – I don’t think I ever made it past the first week. Not like I can’t try again this year.
• Follow a photo 365 project. – Failed! I tried several and I think I lasted a month and change.
• Continue working on my weight loss. – I have, and I have been successful. Not as much as I would have liked, but I have a better understanding of my body and how to achieve my goals this year as far as physical and mental health.

15. What are your plans for 2010?
I think I’ve got mine worked out

• 365 project l: just a photo a day that isn’t a snapshot
• Stop drinking calories : I’m drastically reducing the amount of calories I drink. No more juice, if I have an alcoholic drink only one or two, etc. Morning coffee with only be with milk, no sugar.
• 30 sit ups a day : it can be more than that, but at least 30

16. What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?:
A more creative, physically and mentally healthier me.

Friends and Family
17. Did anyone close to you give birth?:
Nope, but several special people I know are pregnant and having babies in the first 1/4 of 2010 !
18. Did anyone close to you die?:
No, but my mom nearly did. She had a heart attack on Mother’s Day and spent a week at the Heart Institute. She’s better now, but things are still a struggle in keeping her health on track.
19. Whose behavior merited celebration?:
Lucien’s, kiddo has got this category down pat. In March we moved him into his big boy bed, in which he has slept with mininal complaint since. He also was daytime potty trained in March and then in April he decided he was no longer wearing pullups to bed, he was a big boy and needed to wear underwear. We’ve only had a few accidents along the way.
20. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?:
Someone close. I still struggle daily with the acceptance of how much lying this person does on a daily basis.
21. How did you spend Christmas?:
Christmas Eve at Kev’s dad’s, Christmas Day at my sister in law’s. My mom is here of course and I spent the week before Christmas visiting with my dad and stepmom.
22. Did you fall in love in 2009?:
Yep. Over and over again with my husband and my son.
23. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?:
I don’t hate anyone, but there are a couple that have been put on the no fly list
24. Who did you miss?:
My mom, some friends in the states
25. Who was the best new person you met?:
Neville & Mario (he’s like not “new new” but in person new)
26. What was the worst lie someone told you in 2009?
Too much to get into here, but it’s a continuous lie and it’s a big one
27. Did somebody treat you badly in 2009?
Just one, but I ended the friendship so I hope to never have to deal with that ever again.

Events and Things
28. What countries did you visit?:
OMG I CAN FINALLY PUT SOMETHING HERE! I visited Labadee Haiti, Ocho Rios Jamaica, Georgetown Grand Cayman, and Cozumel Mexico as well as a few trips to the States.
29. What was the best thing you bought?:
Well, techincally the company bought it, but my new camera and computer kicks butt, but I think the best would be the train tickets to Quebec City!
30. What did you get really, really, really excited about?:
Our cruise & Quebec City
31. What songs will always remind you of 2009?:
Barking at the Moon – Jenny Lewis
32. What were your favorite TV programs?:
Hell’s Kitchen, Flight of the Conchords
33. What was the best book you read?:
I can’t think of any books I read this year that were “new”
34. What was your greatest musical discovery?:
Jenny Lewis
35. What did you want and get?:
New camera. Not for Christmas, but in general. It’s pretty awesome. Also to meet a friend in Miami when we were there briefly before the cruise. I got to and it was one of the most fun evenings I’ve had in a very long time.
36. What did you want and not get?:
a million dollars
37. What was your favorite film of this year?:
Up!, Cloudy with a chance of Meatballs,
38. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?:
Bill Murray,
39. What political issue stirred you the most?:
Enviromental conservation
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
There is no home like the one you’ve got, ’cause that home belongs to you.
41. What was your favorite moment of the year?
Watching Miami fade into the distance from the back of a cruise ship
42. Where were you when 2009 began & who were you with?
In my living room as usual with Kev and Lucien
43. Where will you be when 2009 ends and who will you be with?
In my living room Kevin, Lucien & my mom.
44. What was your favorite month of 2009?
September. My little guys’ birthday and our big family trip.
45. If you could go back in time to any moment of 2009 and change something what?
Getting the chance to spend more time with my family, but there was nothing major that I regret.

dunno yet. DIR has for the most part been stale this year. maybe next year it can be reborn in a photo/writing project. i’m thinking of doing a 365 project that isn’t self portraits, but really just a one a day. not to say that will happen -lol- but we shall see.

it is however about that time to find the year end wrapups and fill out the 2009 variety. this year was pretty quiet, but there was still enough that happened in the background that was eye opening and life learning experiences.

got CDs burned, 2 clients sessions sorted out ready to rock, one more coming in. Hopefully another 3 booked in the next couple of days and help portrait coming up.

because i’m not accomplishing much…

are now somewhat properly aligned, floated and damaged ones removed. in 6 months, he’ll need it done again