Dreaming.In.Reality

but it’s pretty obvious that my wordpress business is still up in the air. it’s a mess, but at least i’ve figured out how to get the damn links on my page. Knowing that this is a mess along with everything else messy in my life just makes me seriously want to stab things. I feel like i’m drowning under a sea of clutter, laundry, dust, dishes, barfed on carpet, messy websites and the overwhelming urge to have a clean slate to focus myself, my house and my creativity. I despair at thinking, that even if I do get most of it under control, that it’ll just spiral out again within a week and I’ll just throw my hands in the air and say f*ck it, that’s what happened a month ago -lol- and here I sit.

This photo thing actually looks like it’s going to actually go somewhere and do something. It’s exciting and terrifying all at the same time. I did a trade show on Saturday and it went pretty well. We’ll see how much of it comes of the day. I’ll be happy with 1-2 bookings. Which ties into the whole overwhelmed feeling. I can’t concentrate and focus on the photography without feeling guilty that things at home are such a disaster area. I still haven’t gone further than the first lesson on my NYIP course and I really have to get that squared away this summer.