Dreaming.In.Reality

can do to you.. so I called my mum earlier and left her a message about the bowling deal. She was downtown watching the homecoming parade. She wanted to watch the game, but had no one to sit with. Next fall, I will take her. It will be my 10th year out of high school and all that.. so it will be special for me too. God 10 years.. I’m getting freaking old. But in any case.. She rang me back when she got home.. I couldn’t talk with her much because we were getting ready to sit down to eat.. but I got her ID number and she filled me in briefly on what was going on with her..

She’s still feeling really good with no nausea and all that.. but.. as I told her I suspected would happen.. her hair has started to fall out. A few weeks ago, I told her to rummage up her wigs from the last round of chemo, and get to going on having them cleaned and reshaped/conditioned etc.. just in case.. she had one done.. is now having the second done tomorrow, and is buying a third next week.. because the two older ones are of a darker colour… she says she’s lost about 2/3 of her hair.. and it wasn’t super thick to begin with… it will grow back.. it just makes me quite weepy.. because well, she’s my mom and she’s the most beautiful creature to me.. in a way I’m glad I cannot see her right now, because I’m being selfish and saying I cannot handle it. Meh.

IN GOOD NEWS though, her tumors have shrunk in size of about 2cm each and are predicted to continue in that trend. They say after the first of the year, she’ll be having her lumpectomy and be ready for radiation. Her battle seems that it will be shorter than expected.. which I think is just fine for all of us.

I am so ready for Sunday.