Dreaming.In.Reality

Over the past few days, several people.. including myself have been sort of arm twisted into re-evaluating themselves, events that have happened, and relationships with people in their lives. It’s never a good time in your life, when you step back, take a look and realize that “Hey, this.. this.. and this.. are actually something that is quite destructive to me”. It’s never easy to know that you should take the means of removing such things from your life so that you can move on and grow as a person. The question of is this good for the long run, always hovers in the back of your mind, as you start picking up the pieces and setting them aside on the curb.

I like to give people.. a LOT of chances.. Maybe I’m a sucker for self inflicted torture and stress levels.. who knows honestly, but everyone gets probably 3 chances too many with me.. I also like to think the best of someone till they prove otherwise that they shouldn’t be liked or respected in the light and opportunity I have given them in my mind. Everyone has a clean slate, shining gold star on their forehead, and no checkmarks next to the box that says “does not play well with others”. When people start to show their true personalities once you get past that warm fuzzy stage of yah, new friend, you can either accept the oddities that make one who they are, or decide that “meh, this person is not for me”. I’m quite forgiving of a lot of things in people, mostly because if I wasn’t… I’d be calling the kettle black. I’m an odd duck at most times, and it takes a tolerant person to get along with me.

Some words that I’ve been mulling over in my head as I thought about what to write for this entry, have some pretty serious meanings.. Hell, they ALL have serious meanings. Most of them, are meanings I personally would never want associated with me.. but they have at some times.. and I have always strived in life to either correct that, or avoid the situation in it’s entirety. It’s a shock, when suddenly ALL of these apply to people, you never imagined to be capable of them.

– lie : A false statement deliberately presented as being true; a falsehood. Something meant to deceive or give a wrong impression.

– back·stab : To attack (someone) unfairly, especially in an underhand, deceitful manner

– cru·el : Disposed to inflict pain or suffering. Causing suffering; painful.

– mean-spir·it·ed : Having or characterized by a malicious or petty spirit.

– pet·ty : Marked by narrowness of mind, ideas, or views. Marked by meanness or lack of generosity, especially in trifling matters.

– ma·li·cious : Having the nature of or resulting from malice; deliberately harmful; spiteful.

Our relationships with others are like bridges that take us from one place to another; when we “burn our bridges” we destroy our relationships and it is difficult to go back. “Don’t burn your bridges” means that it is important to remember and value the relationships that get you where you are and not damage those relationships.

I would like to think I haven’t burned too many bridges in my lifetime.. I at least try to cross them first*L* But I have known many people who have burned their bridges to me. Once I consider that to have happened, there IS no going back for that person. You’re done. Move along, and I shall hope you don’t self destruct yourself with your maliciousness.