Archive for March, 2003


waiting is the hard part

it’s been a long quiet week.. I spent time with Pat’s girlfriend Carrie.. she’s a sweetie.. I really enjoyed finally hanging out with her.. But I have missed K something fierce.. I don’t know how he manages when I go away for so long here.. and is by himself.. I had the door extra locked up, I slept with the light on.. the slightest noise freaked me out.. I think overall I handled being on my own for the first time every well.. But I had my moments..His plane is supposed to be landing at any minute now. I assume he’s made the flight in Chicago.. he didn’t call to say other wise.. and now.. I just wait..

dry hair is my enemy

Back in December, K and I had gotten our hair cut at a local salon.. Nice place, friendly.. but in this hair cut, I’ve discovered some things that cannot be done to my hair. One being.. no more cutting with a razor. All it does is thin/slice the hair, which then entails what is left from it, becoming extremely suseptible to the elements. The lady commented on my “face frame”, which is basically the hair surround the very front of your face being layered. I said yes, just trim that up a bit, the shortest layer being no shorter than chin length. Both sides of my head were completely layered.. with a razor. So the sides of my hair(mostly the top layer) are now dried out, frizzy and utmost skanky looking. My hair seriously hasn’t looked this bad since high school, and that makes me very angry. When I decided to grow my hair out.. I did no stops.. I took amazing care of it, regular trims, only the best products, no over styling. Now this.. and I’m reaching the end of my rope.

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@#$^*&^%@$#@ outer window

stupid thing froze OPEN*L* I can’t win*L* it’s closed now..

outer window

is open…-shimmies-

and i have me a husband talking on icq to me.. AND.. i slept fairly decent last night*L*

sometimes the right decision…

is always the hardest. My dearest friend in the world, had to make that decision.. and having been in her place before, I know it was probably one of the most painful she will have to ever make. I’ve spent the last few days, looking for something.. that did Hopper justice.. But nothing really quite fit. All I can think of, is how much.. he changed over the years.. changing from a shy kitty, to one that would spend time with the family. There was nothing more heartwarming, then watching him “hug” Bryan, or give you one the coveted headbutts. There was nothing more adorable than watching him drink from the sink, or look up at you with those huge green eyes, flopped over ear.. and give you a great big meow. Be good where ever you are little guy, and remember you are always in our hearts.


From the silence of your pain I heard my name
and on the wings of light I have come
to see the sadness in your eyes
that cry without tears

Can you see me, I am here
I will always be near you
to calm your shattered heart
and to make you smile at the memories

Do you feel me, perhaps a soft brush of fur
You ache to believe it’s real
but you are afraid to hope
You brush away a strand of hair
But it was I, whispering…..

I am only here for but a moment
The silver thread gently quivers
I will leave behind my love in a dream
When you awaken, and without really knowing why

Your heart will know at last
That it is all right, for now
to say good-bye

well-lol-

the inner window opens.. but the outer window still froze solid-lol-

this makes me want to scream

my atrium window -sighs and goes to get the hair dryer going again-

Quiz

which phobia do you have?

Aichmophobia- Fear of needles or pointed objects
Arachnephobia or Arachnophobia- Fear of spiders.
Athazagoraphobia- Fear of being forgotton or ignored or forgetting
Illyngophobia- Fear of vertigo or feeling dizzy when looking down.
Isolophobia- Fear of solitude, being alone.
Nosocomephobia- Fear of hospitals
Pteromerhanophobia- Fear of flying