Dreaming.In.Reality

So today I actually spent quite a bit of time working on getting some things done with this site. I got my mp3’s sorted out, playlists made.. I finally figured a way to do a bio page.. I really like how it came together.. I fixed up and made sure all the links were right.. and I had all the same stuff on the same page.. Sooner or later I have to get Bev to help me with the PHP for comments though.. maybe later today…. for now I need to go to bed..

So here I was today, cleaning my house.. taken care of the left over disasters that had occured during the 5 days before, during and after my wedding*L* I was washing out a vase, when I was listening to a song.. on the radio.. it’s by some teenage pop princess.. a rather NEW one.. but all in all.. and all I could get of the song was, she was telling someone to stop being something they are not.. and life is only what you make it. So on that, I began thinking about a close online friend of mine, who has a rather “perfection” seeking partner.. where anything and everything she does, is never good enough, or because of things she has done in the past.. ALL of those, make her a bad person, totally ignoring the good that she has done.. and the good person that she IS. And I can remember talking once, to her partner.. and all he wanted was her to be this or that.. and I asked him.. well she’s none of those.. and he said he knew.. but couldn’t accept all of that. Which made me think of OTHER things that happened in a relationship of mine, to where.. I basically told this fellow I was with, if you couldn’t accept something I have done, or may do.. or may have in my life.. .that you truely cannot accept me as a whole.. And if you cannot do that, than you truely cannot love me.. and I don’t want to be in that type of situation. Which is what I want the both of them to realize.. but there’s only so much one on the outside can do..

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So.. For the most part, I have finished taking care of the index page, getting all the links working etc.. Uploaded the the new template.. There are a few things that I need to change or add. They will come in time as I think of them and write them down.. 2 big ones being the site tracker which I am doing right after this post, and the guestbook.. or temp guestbook, I’ve not really decided if I want to keep my Bravenet stuff.. I suppose I do, considering I have yet to learn any of the other stuff, such as php etc. blah.. Bev shall be the teacher for that. Anyhooos.. off to tweak some stuff up, so it’s done before I forget.. which could be at anytime.. Adieu.

Well, here is the start of something new.. I have 2 people to thank mostly in getting this thing going.. FIRSTLY. my dear and wonderful Kevin, for arranging the space and domain for me:) and then secondly my sweety Bevie.. for holding my hand and helping me stomp my way through this.. giving me her rose layout, to play and mangle on my own free will after she de-Beved it:) So I’m just tinkering along with it now.. I think I have most of it going smoothly.. will soon just be creating the extra pages that connect everything, making some links, finding links and what not:) And we’ll see what goes from there.. for the first time. .in a long time.. I’m actually excited about my net home.. it’s kind of strange*L*